Over the years I have gone through many body changes. In my early 20's through my late 20's I was having babies. Four beautiful babies. For each pregnancy and the time after, my body changed. In my 30's I wanted to get my body back, so I did and it carried me through some of the hardest times of my life. Now in my late 30's, and scarily enough, very near my early 40's, it has carried me through more life changes.
As I reflect on the amount of changes my body has gone through, I realize that I am really mean to myself. It may sound harsh, unforgiving, and even rude, but it is true. I have been mean to myself. When it comes to accepting others as they are, I am there for it 100%. Show me who you are, I will believe you. But when it comes to accepting me and my body for what it is, that is a whole new ballgame.
I am constantly berating myself for my size, for letting myself get this way...again, for not being enough. But if you come to me and say, "I am working on losing weight" or "I am on a fitness journey", I am your biggest cheerleader. I will tell you that I am here for you for whatever you need during this time. You need encouragement? I got you! You need ideas, COVERED! You need someone to walk with? Let's go! It is your journey when you are ready and we will take it at your pace.
So, why is it that we can be so accepting of others and their journey but so hard on ourselves for our own. My journey is just as important as everyone else's. Is it because I have successfully lost the weight and got fit before and then I reverted back? Is it because of that, that I don't think I deserve to be fit and healthy again?
I am trying to take a fresh look at fitness, health, and working out. What does fitness mean to me? What are my goals that I want to accomplish with getting fit? Why is this important to me? How will this benefit me? I am hoping that by answering some of these questions that I will be able to find a lasting kind of fitness that is incorporated into my whole life.
Every Body deserves to feel fit and healthy. Every Body deserves to be able to move in the ways that they want to. I truly believe that it looks different for every person. Every Body is deserving.
See you soon!
Ali XOXO
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